There is no other major planets in the solar system like Pluto that can better embody and interpret this particular passage from the book Yesterday I Was the Moon.
We all have a Pluto in our natal chart that needs to be transformed. His energy is immense, deep, profound and significant. He shows us our most difficult soul lesson: A certain obsession from the past, then he works like earthquakes that lasts for decades, crashing every bit to leave space for new personal transformation. He wipes the slate clean.
For a Plutonian, which means someone who chose to experience this major transformative life lesson in the most intense form, the trauma can be a lifelong nightmare. When experiencing traumatic life events of their Pluto transits, it could be feeling like being undertaken a bone marrow transplant surgery without any anaesthetic. We could experience betrayal or abandonment that ripped our heart open; or utter grief of the death of someone we held dear; or we might suffer from some secret traumas from our originated family that we find it hard to share with anyone else outside the family and so on. The Plutonian kind of traumas can be very personal as no one has truly been there except Plutonians themselves.
As no one can truly understand what they experienced, the exit of anger for Plutonians has been blocked. They could have released it in a healthy way without causing further damage, instead they had to seal their anger and brew into the Plutonian energy waiting to be transformed: Resentment and the Obsession over pain.
“Why me?”
“What did I do to deserve this kind of torture?”
“Look at what they did to me.”
“Don’t you tell me to let go. What about the trauma I suffered?”
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As a Plutonian myself, this used to be me. I could feel that I was giving out this intense, heavy and repelling frequency. It was just the opposite of everything nice I wanted for myself. With too much pain that can not be seen and accepted, I held on to them so tight like I was about to drown, being manipulated by the undercurrent of the past. It was too hard to believe that there will be light at the other side of the tunnel as sitting in the darkness was all I wanted to do. The pain felt so overwhelmingly heavy that I could not move at all. To escape seemed to be a much easier option.
Pluto also rules the most significant personal power of transformation. But the transformation will not automatically happen overnight. Most of us would sit in the darkness for a very long time. But we need to know that we have every right to choose what we could do when experiencing Plutonian pain, either to die with it or sit up and uncover the deeper meaning behind it. When we dwell in the traumatic past, we give away every bit of our personal power. We are addicted to pain. We are dwelling in the Victim Consciousness. We are not taking any responsibilities with anything that happened to us. We have been yearning for someone to save us from the pit. The truth is No one will turn up. While the trauma we hold on so tight drag us deeper into the darkness, our suppressed anger has brewed into toxic resentment, but ONLY poison our own mind, heart and body.
Eventually I experienced a Plutonian incident out of the blue. It released me from sitting in the darkness. The very event struck me like a lightening bolt, breaking me into millions of pieces. I had to do tons of inner work in a short period of time to collect back all the scattered pieces, to really stepped onto a journey of returning to wholeness. I finally realised that I need to claim back my personal power and fully assume the responsibility of my life and my destiny. The traumas in the past are merely traumas, nothing more than that before stepping onto an alchemical transformation pathway. But they serve a purpose. When we finally have enough of sitting in the darkness, rise up again from the ashes, rebuild our home of our heart and the physical world, we will uncover the greatest blessings behind the trauma for sure.
If you are ready to take the first step to transform your Pluto—your deepest trauma into the greatest blessing that you ever have, pm me.
Pearl of Sharro 